I’m not quitting. I’m not giving up. But I am giving my food diary the finger and then the cold shoulder for a while. And I’m going to spend a little more time than usual with my foot propped up while playing Lego Harry Potter.
I have a stress fracture in my fibula, and I’ve been unable to exercise like I want to for the past two weeks, with at least three weeks to go. On the no-can-do list are running, walking, elliptical, leg press, squats or lunges. I can bike and do seated strength training.
Running is my main form of stress relief. I was able to stop taking antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication when I started running. Biking just doesn’t do it for me. Maybe if I had an actual bicycle and could go for a long ride outside, but sitting in a gym on a stationary… I feel like a hamster on a wheel. (I feel the same way about treadmills and ellipticals. I’ll do them if I can’t run outside, but it doesn’t pack the same punch.)
Running is also a great calorie burner, and enabled me to eat like a queen. I’m used to chowing down on up to 2200 calories a day. And biking burns roughly half the calories.
I’m grumpy because I can’t be as active as I want, and grumpy because I can’t, or feel like I can’t, eat like I want.
So I’m taking a break from logging my food. I’m not going to just sit on my ass and eat junk all day long, but I’m not going to stress about sticking to the right amount of calories and balancing my macros and all that.
I’m thinking of it as a test. If I can maintain my weight even under abnormal circumstances, then maybe I don’t need to log my food anymore. I’ve been taking weekends off from logging since June with no problems. My weight has fluctuated since going on maintenance in October, but my body has continued to shrink.
And if I gain some excess fat? So what?! How much can I possibly gain in three weeks? Even if I eat 500 calories over maintenance each day, which I highly doubt I would, I’d only gain 3 pounds. Big whoop. I’ll lose it again once I can be my normal active self again.